Honest observation of the self, the creator of words and ideas

Originality? Is it possible to create something new without using other people's ideas? Throughout my lifetime, I have read and watch many people who are considered to be expert in their field. I understand what they are saying, without living their experiences. I am questioning all the things I have read and watched over time. I've listened to many people talk about money, fitness, health, spirituality, truth and life, hoping for change, hoping that I can learn to become like them. Now, I ask myself why... Why listen to these people, nothing has changed, I'm still the same person.

Who is the self?

Sometimes my mind would go blank. The mind that is writing this, who is it? The biological brain of a human male? Is it the languages that I have learned, the words I have stored, and experiences that I have gone through.... Which part of the mind that is producing this content?

There is no point... The search for meaning has stopped... There is no purpose other than physical survival of the body.

The body contains everything, including thoughts and emotions. Most people are heavily invested on their emotions and thoughts. The self that they call themselves are based on it.

Can you see yourself outside of who you think you are or who you feel you are?

Who is the self? Who is the mind that is producing these thoughts and ideas?

The search is never ending and meaningless.... LIVE without searching who you are. Many have tried and end up finding the unknown to be endless.

Who is influencing the writer of this content? and why write and leave a mark at all? It will eventually get washed away.

Grow, decay, and die and hope to be renew.